Just a few weeks ago I shared a blog post about The Road to Full-Time Photography, it was not until I prepared that presentation for the AKP Retreat that I realized how many times I put my business before my family, my friends and myself. One of the hardest things I have ever done was saying out loud that there were days I did not hold my baby, because she was asleep when I left in the morning and asleep when I got home. It's embarrasing to admit that, that you worked so much that you forgot to LIVE and enjoy life. In the middle of juggling all of my roles I realized I was failing more than I was succeeding. I was failing my job, my child, my husband, my business, myself and heck, even the dogs. I stretched myself thin, and yes I managed to do it all but with that comes sacrifice. Owning your own business comes with sacrifices that some people will not understand. Your friends and family will watch you drift away into entreprenuer land and you will lose people along the way. I knew I needed to make changes so I came up with a schedule that worked really well for me and time management came to my rescue.
Last week my hubby and baby both got the stomach flu and I stayed home from work to take care of them. My baby girl wanted me and only me and despite being covered in her bodily fluids I welcomed the extra cuddles. I will never get this time back with her, before I know it she will be in school and then driving and then heading out into the world on her own. Yea, there's a lot of years before that but at the rate time is flying by it will be here within the blink of an eye. Since I was home I snapped random photos all week, just around the house...I don't do that anymore since I have had a business. How funny is that? What sparked my interest in photography is now the one thing I never ever do.....and that is capturing the world around me. I feel like I took so much for granted, when you are going. going. going. you never...and this is so cliche but...you never stop to smell the roses.
I can't believe I am typing these words....I put in notice to resign from my job, I have a few more weeks at was once my dream career and then my road to full-time will come to an end, I am finally taking the leap. I thought I would be a crying sobbing mess thinking "are you insane!" "this is crazy" "this is too scary" but all I feel is happiness and relief. I know I am still young and I have years to work in my field but I am replacing 50-60 hours of working/commuting with time for myself, my family, my friends and my business. It feels like the right choice. Cue the confetti!
The words I wrote in my goals book on 12/24/15 were my birthday wishes.